The big Sad

When it burns from the bottom of your gut

Suddenly unable to stop the tears

I’m breathing, I’m here, I can actually feel

No longer blocked by that which inhibits raw emotion

But the tears flowed, endlessly

Honestly didn’t know I could do that anymore

Its been a while since I’ve had a sad this big

A sad that could make time stand still

A sad that you get over, but still comes back in waves

And hits you in the back of the throat, rendering you speechless

Unable to human, unable to function,

But I can feel

It beats being numb